Yesterday, I could stand it no longer!
I have done a lot of work about my Control Freak addiction and most of the time now I can just say “whatever!” But that doesn’t mean I’m comfortable with it. I can usually now not mentally criticize how someone else in charge is doing things. And I am grateful for their service.
Now, I limit my expressing my control freak nature by cleaning. When things are clean, I feel that my environment is ordered and controlled.
We used to have a joke about how when I cleaned the kitchen I would deep-clean it to within an inch of it’s life. Trudie labeled it “Patrickzizing” the kitchen.
So, yesterday I couldn’t stand the driveway and house status any longer. I had to do something. So I got out the rake and the power blower and I blew all the two month accumulation of leaves off the deck, porch, driveway, and – just for good measure – the cul-de-sac street.
I also got out the vacuum and vacuumed the house.
And, since it had been bothering me for a long time, I washed my 240 DL Volvo (yes, in 45F weather).
Ahh! That feels better. Now my world feels more ordered, clean, and more controlled.
I’m sorry for my slip; I’ll be picking up another white chip at tomorrow’s meeting.